A(n) philosopher, comedian, artist, therapist, writer, photographer, cinematographer, human activist, video game enthusiast, feminist and clearly- an observer of all human behaviour.
We are not meant to stay wounded. We are supposed to move through our tragedies and challenges and to help each other move through the many painful episodes of our lives. By remaining stuck in the power of our wounds, we block our own transformation. We overlook the greater gifts inherent in our wounds — the strength to overcome them and the lessons that we are meant to receive through them. Wounds are the means through which we enter the hearts of other people. They are meant to teach us to become compassionate and wise.
So after experiencing a nervous breakdown at my dentist last week, I had the wonderful opportunity to come back today for another checkup. I had to look at everyone in the eye and be like, “Oh I cried in front of you….and you….and to that fake plant over there in the corner….and you!”
And obviously when I saw my dentist, I apologized and told him that I was just having a super shitty week last week (hence my nervous breakdown).
And you know what he says to me:
"No need to apologize. I realized that you were having an emotional release more than anything else - I can tell these things after all since I do have daughters myself.
But, you shouldn’t keep things bottled up inside either. It’s healthy to let people know how you’re feeling!”
WHO IS THE ONE GETTING A PSYCHOLOGY DEGREE?
I THINK I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING, MR. DENTIST MAN.
I KNOW HOW TO PROPERLY EXPRESS MY EMOTIONS AND NOT HAVE MENTAL BREAKDOWNS IN FRONT OF STRANGERS.
*but in all seriousness, that was super sweet of him to say and also sorta jarring because I do have a bad habit of doing that. I am sorta emotionally inept sometimes when it comes to myself.
Also I am in a way better headspace now since midterms are over! I feel like I rocked most of them, so I am happy. c:
It really breaks my heart to see more of these sexual assault cases unfolding from the Youtube community. I’ve been following it quite closely and all I can really say is that I’m disappointed once again, mostly sad if that means anything. It seems like a lot of people have suffered at the expense of well-known Youtubers - and I am sure there are those out there who haven’t stepped forward and are suffering in silence because of it. And that last statement just doesn’t apply to the playgrounds of Youtube - but all across the world.
I wish I knew what to say when it came to these kind of things, but there are no words in which I feel like they be at all comforting. It’s just a slap to the face and I wish I could say that the sting would dull with time, but it hasn’t. Maybe it’s a good thing that it hasn’t because it just means that this is a big problem and it has to be stopped, or at least more talked about.
I am proud of the people who have stepped forward about these allegations. But I am also proud of the people who are fighting silently, one day at a time, who are working up the courage to tell someone one day.